Sometimes I feel like an inflatable lifeboat in the middle of a hurricane. Even though the holiday season is over, this momma is still recovering; mentally and financially, but mostly financially. Christmas is one of the hardest seasons on an income and this recovery process is rough. Getting a third job seems more and more necessary. Seeing the good side of things gets harder and harder. However, I know God has plans for me. I know He is going to take care of me and guide me through these troubled waters. Until I see land I just have to keep on rowing and just stay afloat. Doing this means I just gotta keep trusting and turning to Him.

With all this, I have to be real and say that this was brought upon myself. Last spring, summer, and this past fall I was fine, I had enough money to put back, but I am one that likes to shop in my free time and well, you get the picture. I mean, my son didn’t need ALL of those clothes and toys. Trust me, he has plenty, of both! I did have some big necessary purchases in the fall, but still, I tend to splurge more than I should. I argued with myself multiple times of day about my spending, but I kept on trucking. Of course, these good days were the days I was putting God first. Yet, the whole month of December He was pushed to the back burner again. Honestly, He has been there this month too. Just in the nick of time, the scheduled classes and d-groups are starting back up. Yes, it means a busy week but it helps me keep Him in my main line of sight and makes it harder for me to push my faith to the side. I know I have to keep reading, and learning, and spreading His message and love.

This struggle bus will push on!!

**Am I the only one that sees Ms. Fritter from Cars 3 when talking about the struggle bus?

“I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” –Romans 8:18